Hey everyone! I hope this is finding you on a happy day! Just gonna give an update on what's been going on in my life...
Well, to start off... school is almost over. Only about 3 weeks left, and I will have officially made it through my first year of college. Excitement! I'm excited about the year being over, yet I am also a little upset about it. I don't wan to leave. I like having all of my friends here. I like being able to walk out the door and see someone I know. I like having things to do. I'm not too good with having spare, free time with nothing to do. However... I may be staying on campus over the summer. I may be working for the school and taking summer classes here. Thank goodness! That would give me something to do! And... my best friend is going to be doing the same thing... so I will at least have someone that I know here!
I am working with a local youth group as well. Ya wanna know what's funny about that? The youth leader at this church used to be my youth intern at my home church. It's pretty amazing though. He is a really great youth leader. His youth all love him, and I just really enjoy working with him. The church is amazing. All of the people there are so welcoming and such a blessing to me!
Boys? Who wants to know about boys? Well... I'm still single. However... I do have my eye on this one guy... :) It's kind of crazy because I have liked this guy for quite some time. I just recently found out the he feels the same. However... it's a difficult situation. I am NOT getting my hopes up. I know that God will provide, and if it's meant to be... He will make it happen... in His time. But... that doesn't mean I can't still tell everything I like about this guy huh? He is just so amazing. He makes me smile, he makes me laugh, and well, just forget being upset when I'm around him. The way he looks at me just melts my heart. Oh, and when he hugs me... wow... it makes me feel like nothing else is going on in the world. It feels like time has stopped. I just can't stop thinking about him sometimes... I know that sounds kind of stalkerish... but it's not supposed to. I just think he is such an amazing person. I wake up each day to a text from him just wishing me a good day. It always starts my day off well just knowing that he was thinking about me. He is such a gentleman. And oh yea... the best thing ever... He is a great Christian guy! That is the icing on the cake. Oh yeah... and um... let me just say.... HE IS HOT! I mean... I'm sorry... but looks do matter. Although... personality is a huge huge huge huge huge huge part of why I like this guy... but looks... well... that definitely helps... A LOT!
Ok--- off that subject... well... going to bed. Lots to do tomorrow. G'nite to all!
Monday, April 20, 2009
Sunday, February 22, 2009
AHHH!
Life... I don't even know where to start... I guess the beginning is as good of a place as any...
So... to start off- my grandad is really sick. He has cancer. For the past 2 weeks we haven't know ANYTHING. None of the freaking doctors can figure out anything, and it seems like he just continues to get worse. I saw him this weekend, and my heart literally broke into a million pieces seeing him like that. I can't believe that the strongest man in my life is laying there.. helpless, and seemingly hopeless. For the past 2 weeks my heart has been breaking each day as I think of him just lying there. I can't even begin to imagine what it would be like if he died. That man has been my lifeline for 19 years. I can't deal with it if he were to pass. Man....
On top of all of that my boyfriend and I broke up. I seriously thought I was in love with him, and I thought we were going to get married and live a happy life together. Boy was I wrong about that one. I know I did the right thing by breaking up with him, but tonight as I was looking around my dorm room and taking down all of the pictures of the 2 of us... my heart broke again. I seriously just lost the one guy that has ever TRULY loved me. But... I did what I had to do for myself... which is what everyone keeps saying was the right thing to do... but then why do I feel so crappy and so alone?
And then there is the whole school thing. It's so fun, yet so much work. I just don't know what to do about everything. I am getting way too upset over the stupidest things, yet to me they aren't stupid... idk... I just need a great big hug!!!!!!!!!! Maybe that would help!
So... to start off- my grandad is really sick. He has cancer. For the past 2 weeks we haven't know ANYTHING. None of the freaking doctors can figure out anything, and it seems like he just continues to get worse. I saw him this weekend, and my heart literally broke into a million pieces seeing him like that. I can't believe that the strongest man in my life is laying there.. helpless, and seemingly hopeless. For the past 2 weeks my heart has been breaking each day as I think of him just lying there. I can't even begin to imagine what it would be like if he died. That man has been my lifeline for 19 years. I can't deal with it if he were to pass. Man....
On top of all of that my boyfriend and I broke up. I seriously thought I was in love with him, and I thought we were going to get married and live a happy life together. Boy was I wrong about that one. I know I did the right thing by breaking up with him, but tonight as I was looking around my dorm room and taking down all of the pictures of the 2 of us... my heart broke again. I seriously just lost the one guy that has ever TRULY loved me. But... I did what I had to do for myself... which is what everyone keeps saying was the right thing to do... but then why do I feel so crappy and so alone?
And then there is the whole school thing. It's so fun, yet so much work. I just don't know what to do about everything. I am getting way too upset over the stupidest things, yet to me they aren't stupid... idk... I just need a great big hug!!!!!!!!!! Maybe that would help!
Tuesday, February 3, 2009
Update
Well, it's been a while since I've been on here. Man... SO much has happened!
Let's see, where to start off---
Well, first semester of college ended, and I went home with a good feeling of accomplishment!!! I really enjoyed being home. The first night I went home I got to go to a Casting Crowns concert with a bunch of my FAVORITE people EVER! I loved it! My friend Cassandra from school came with me too. That was amazing!
Then I got a job for a week! I was super excited. Didn't have to just be sitting at home the whole break having nothing to do. Made a little bit of money! However, during that week my best friend was admitted into the psychiatric ward at Baptist Hospitol. That was the hardest thing ever for me to have to go through. Seeing her being admited.. well... that reminded me of where I was just a year ago. I almost was in her shoes... but THANK GOD and thanks to many other people I was able to get over my depression!
Then... AUNT CINDI came home!!!!! I was so excited to see her! It had been practically since March since I had seen her... and I WAS SO HAPPY! I spent as much time as possible with her! My grandad had a concert the Monday night before Christmas, and I sang in it... along with the rest of the family! I had never heard my aunt Cindi sing before. She did AMAZING! Oh- and my boyfriend came in to hear us. He stayed until Christmas Eve. That was fun! I love Christmas all together... but having him there was just amazing! It was so special. My aunt finally got to meet him too. And well, she loved him. As we all do!
Christmas ended, and Aunt Cindi had to go home. :( Sad day. But not before she and I got to spend a WHOLE day together! Just us! That was great! We got to talk about stuff just the two of us!
Up next was my birthday. But sadly... I had to come back to school on my birthday. That was ok though. I enjoyed spending it with my friends.
Now school is back in swing. I love it!!!! I have a new roommate! It's great! And my grades are SO much better now! I am so happy...
Well, I'm off here. Gotta get some rest. Feeling a bit under the weather.
Love to all.
Let's see, where to start off---
Well, first semester of college ended, and I went home with a good feeling of accomplishment!!! I really enjoyed being home. The first night I went home I got to go to a Casting Crowns concert with a bunch of my FAVORITE people EVER! I loved it! My friend Cassandra from school came with me too. That was amazing!
Then I got a job for a week! I was super excited. Didn't have to just be sitting at home the whole break having nothing to do. Made a little bit of money! However, during that week my best friend was admitted into the psychiatric ward at Baptist Hospitol. That was the hardest thing ever for me to have to go through. Seeing her being admited.. well... that reminded me of where I was just a year ago. I almost was in her shoes... but THANK GOD and thanks to many other people I was able to get over my depression!
Then... AUNT CINDI came home!!!!! I was so excited to see her! It had been practically since March since I had seen her... and I WAS SO HAPPY! I spent as much time as possible with her! My grandad had a concert the Monday night before Christmas, and I sang in it... along with the rest of the family! I had never heard my aunt Cindi sing before. She did AMAZING! Oh- and my boyfriend came in to hear us. He stayed until Christmas Eve. That was fun! I love Christmas all together... but having him there was just amazing! It was so special. My aunt finally got to meet him too. And well, she loved him. As we all do!
Christmas ended, and Aunt Cindi had to go home. :( Sad day. But not before she and I got to spend a WHOLE day together! Just us! That was great! We got to talk about stuff just the two of us!
Up next was my birthday. But sadly... I had to come back to school on my birthday. That was ok though. I enjoyed spending it with my friends.
Now school is back in swing. I love it!!!! I have a new roommate! It's great! And my grades are SO much better now! I am so happy...
Well, I'm off here. Gotta get some rest. Feeling a bit under the weather.
Love to all.
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