Hey everyone! I hope this is finding you on a happy day! Just gonna give an update on what's been going on in my life...
Well, to start off... school is almost over. Only about 3 weeks left, and I will have officially made it through my first year of college. Excitement! I'm excited about the year being over, yet I am also a little upset about it. I don't wan to leave. I like having all of my friends here. I like being able to walk out the door and see someone I know. I like having things to do. I'm not too good with having spare, free time with nothing to do. However... I may be staying on campus over the summer. I may be working for the school and taking summer classes here. Thank goodness! That would give me something to do! And... my best friend is going to be doing the same thing... so I will at least have someone that I know here!
I am working with a local youth group as well. Ya wanna know what's funny about that? The youth leader at this church used to be my youth intern at my home church. It's pretty amazing though. He is a really great youth leader. His youth all love him, and I just really enjoy working with him. The church is amazing. All of the people there are so welcoming and such a blessing to me!
Boys? Who wants to know about boys? Well... I'm still single. However... I do have my eye on this one guy... :) It's kind of crazy because I have liked this guy for quite some time. I just recently found out the he feels the same. However... it's a difficult situation. I am NOT getting my hopes up. I know that God will provide, and if it's meant to be... He will make it happen... in His time. But... that doesn't mean I can't still tell everything I like about this guy huh? He is just so amazing. He makes me smile, he makes me laugh, and well, just forget being upset when I'm around him. The way he looks at me just melts my heart. Oh, and when he hugs me... wow... it makes me feel like nothing else is going on in the world. It feels like time has stopped. I just can't stop thinking about him sometimes... I know that sounds kind of stalkerish... but it's not supposed to. I just think he is such an amazing person. I wake up each day to a text from him just wishing me a good day. It always starts my day off well just knowing that he was thinking about me. He is such a gentleman. And oh yea... the best thing ever... He is a great Christian guy! That is the icing on the cake. Oh yeah... and um... let me just say.... HE IS HOT! I mean... I'm sorry... but looks do matter. Although... personality is a huge huge huge huge huge huge part of why I like this guy... but looks... well... that definitely helps... A LOT!
Ok--- off that subject... well... going to bed. Lots to do tomorrow. G'nite to all!
Monday, April 20, 2009
Sunday, February 22, 2009
AHHH!
Life... I don't even know where to start... I guess the beginning is as good of a place as any...
So... to start off- my grandad is really sick. He has cancer. For the past 2 weeks we haven't know ANYTHING. None of the freaking doctors can figure out anything, and it seems like he just continues to get worse. I saw him this weekend, and my heart literally broke into a million pieces seeing him like that. I can't believe that the strongest man in my life is laying there.. helpless, and seemingly hopeless. For the past 2 weeks my heart has been breaking each day as I think of him just lying there. I can't even begin to imagine what it would be like if he died. That man has been my lifeline for 19 years. I can't deal with it if he were to pass. Man....
On top of all of that my boyfriend and I broke up. I seriously thought I was in love with him, and I thought we were going to get married and live a happy life together. Boy was I wrong about that one. I know I did the right thing by breaking up with him, but tonight as I was looking around my dorm room and taking down all of the pictures of the 2 of us... my heart broke again. I seriously just lost the one guy that has ever TRULY loved me. But... I did what I had to do for myself... which is what everyone keeps saying was the right thing to do... but then why do I feel so crappy and so alone?
And then there is the whole school thing. It's so fun, yet so much work. I just don't know what to do about everything. I am getting way too upset over the stupidest things, yet to me they aren't stupid... idk... I just need a great big hug!!!!!!!!!! Maybe that would help!
So... to start off- my grandad is really sick. He has cancer. For the past 2 weeks we haven't know ANYTHING. None of the freaking doctors can figure out anything, and it seems like he just continues to get worse. I saw him this weekend, and my heart literally broke into a million pieces seeing him like that. I can't believe that the strongest man in my life is laying there.. helpless, and seemingly hopeless. For the past 2 weeks my heart has been breaking each day as I think of him just lying there. I can't even begin to imagine what it would be like if he died. That man has been my lifeline for 19 years. I can't deal with it if he were to pass. Man....
On top of all of that my boyfriend and I broke up. I seriously thought I was in love with him, and I thought we were going to get married and live a happy life together. Boy was I wrong about that one. I know I did the right thing by breaking up with him, but tonight as I was looking around my dorm room and taking down all of the pictures of the 2 of us... my heart broke again. I seriously just lost the one guy that has ever TRULY loved me. But... I did what I had to do for myself... which is what everyone keeps saying was the right thing to do... but then why do I feel so crappy and so alone?
And then there is the whole school thing. It's so fun, yet so much work. I just don't know what to do about everything. I am getting way too upset over the stupidest things, yet to me they aren't stupid... idk... I just need a great big hug!!!!!!!!!! Maybe that would help!
Tuesday, February 3, 2009
Update
Well, it's been a while since I've been on here. Man... SO much has happened!
Let's see, where to start off---
Well, first semester of college ended, and I went home with a good feeling of accomplishment!!! I really enjoyed being home. The first night I went home I got to go to a Casting Crowns concert with a bunch of my FAVORITE people EVER! I loved it! My friend Cassandra from school came with me too. That was amazing!
Then I got a job for a week! I was super excited. Didn't have to just be sitting at home the whole break having nothing to do. Made a little bit of money! However, during that week my best friend was admitted into the psychiatric ward at Baptist Hospitol. That was the hardest thing ever for me to have to go through. Seeing her being admited.. well... that reminded me of where I was just a year ago. I almost was in her shoes... but THANK GOD and thanks to many other people I was able to get over my depression!
Then... AUNT CINDI came home!!!!! I was so excited to see her! It had been practically since March since I had seen her... and I WAS SO HAPPY! I spent as much time as possible with her! My grandad had a concert the Monday night before Christmas, and I sang in it... along with the rest of the family! I had never heard my aunt Cindi sing before. She did AMAZING! Oh- and my boyfriend came in to hear us. He stayed until Christmas Eve. That was fun! I love Christmas all together... but having him there was just amazing! It was so special. My aunt finally got to meet him too. And well, she loved him. As we all do!
Christmas ended, and Aunt Cindi had to go home. :( Sad day. But not before she and I got to spend a WHOLE day together! Just us! That was great! We got to talk about stuff just the two of us!
Up next was my birthday. But sadly... I had to come back to school on my birthday. That was ok though. I enjoyed spending it with my friends.
Now school is back in swing. I love it!!!! I have a new roommate! It's great! And my grades are SO much better now! I am so happy...
Well, I'm off here. Gotta get some rest. Feeling a bit under the weather.
Love to all.
Let's see, where to start off---
Well, first semester of college ended, and I went home with a good feeling of accomplishment!!! I really enjoyed being home. The first night I went home I got to go to a Casting Crowns concert with a bunch of my FAVORITE people EVER! I loved it! My friend Cassandra from school came with me too. That was amazing!
Then I got a job for a week! I was super excited. Didn't have to just be sitting at home the whole break having nothing to do. Made a little bit of money! However, during that week my best friend was admitted into the psychiatric ward at Baptist Hospitol. That was the hardest thing ever for me to have to go through. Seeing her being admited.. well... that reminded me of where I was just a year ago. I almost was in her shoes... but THANK GOD and thanks to many other people I was able to get over my depression!
Then... AUNT CINDI came home!!!!! I was so excited to see her! It had been practically since March since I had seen her... and I WAS SO HAPPY! I spent as much time as possible with her! My grandad had a concert the Monday night before Christmas, and I sang in it... along with the rest of the family! I had never heard my aunt Cindi sing before. She did AMAZING! Oh- and my boyfriend came in to hear us. He stayed until Christmas Eve. That was fun! I love Christmas all together... but having him there was just amazing! It was so special. My aunt finally got to meet him too. And well, she loved him. As we all do!
Christmas ended, and Aunt Cindi had to go home. :( Sad day. But not before she and I got to spend a WHOLE day together! Just us! That was great! We got to talk about stuff just the two of us!
Up next was my birthday. But sadly... I had to come back to school on my birthday. That was ok though. I enjoyed spending it with my friends.
Now school is back in swing. I love it!!!! I have a new roommate! It's great! And my grades are SO much better now! I am so happy...
Well, I'm off here. Gotta get some rest. Feeling a bit under the weather.
Love to all.
Tuesday, December 2, 2008
Christmas
Hey everyone! Sorry I've been so slack on keeping up with this thing. Hopefully I can get back on track!
Well... it's nearing the end of my first semester as a freshman in college! While I am really looking forward to being home for the Christmas Holiday, the one thing keeping me grounded is a little 5 letter word... it stings... it hurts... it may even scare some... yes... the word I am talking about is... EXAMS! Exams are next week, and that means... yes, all week this week I am studying my behind off in order to secure good grades on these exams. [ouch... that word hurts every time... no matter how much I say it. It just doesn't get any easier.]
On the other hand... one thing that is keeping my sanity is the fact that I can FINALLY, after almost a year of anticipation, LISTEN TO CHRISTMAS MUSIC! I find myself listening to it just about every waking moment that I am not in class! It's great! Christmas music just soothes my soul! And during this time... I need the soothing!
Christmas... yes, Christmas... only 24 days away. Wait! What? Only 24 days! Wow... I gotta get busy!!! PSYCH! I already have everyone's Christmas presents! Whew... boy am I lucky! I got the last of them on black Friday- yes. I was one of the stupid people who went out early Friday morning after Thanksgiving in order to get just a few dollars off of that one present. But hey, It was worth every second of it. Fun experience. And... I only had to knock out one little kid. JUST KIDDING JUST KIDDING!
Anyhow... what am I most excited about concerning Christmas? Welll, obviously that would be my Aunt Cindi coming home. Now that she's off in Seatle it's sad. I never get to see her anymore. I do miss her A LOT! She's going to be home for quite a while actually! And other than that wonderful fact, I am also excited about all of the lights, the Christmas Eve service, and just the simple fact of all of our loved ones gathered together celebrating the true meaning of Christmas! Because... as said by the famous Steven Curtis Chapman.. "Christmas is all in the heart!"
Now... what do I miss most around Christmas time not being at home? Well, I definitely miss the fact that I didn't really get to help finish decorating. I did get to decorate a bit, but it's just not the same. I guess I took that for granted when I lived at home. Sadness. But, I am super glad that I am almost done here so I can get home!
What Christmas memory do I miss most? Definitely Christmastime with Uncle David. There was never a dull moment when he was around. He was hilarious! And I guess I can lump it all together and say Christmas as a child. However, I really enjoy Christmas now, because I can see the reaction from people when I give them a gift. And that is WAY better than recieving gifts... at least in my opinon. So, I take back that I miss Christmas as a child. Yes, it was fun, but I really enjoy being an adult.
What Christmas memory am I looking most forward to this year? Well, this year I have this amazing boyfriend. I am really excited to start a tradition with him. I can't wait for this to be the beginning of our MANY Christmas together to come. Not only that, but it's the first Christmas with the Sikes family. It's going to be really exciting to see how the kids act around Christmas time!
What do I want most for Christmas this year? Fellowship! I want to see everyone from church, out of town, family, friends... everyone. I miss seeing everyone now that I'm off at college. It's going to be so great to see everyone and catch up. Just fellowshipping, loving, and talking. Also singing Christmas carols. They always make me feel all warm and fuzzy! Ooo... and SNOW!!!!! I want a white Christmas so badly. Well, a white Christmas Eve preferably!
What am I looking most forward to after Christmas break is over? Nothing. Just kidding. I guess I am kind of looking forward to coming back to school. I mean, I will have a new roommate. And she is like my best friend! So that's cool. Not to mention it will be the last semester of my freshman year. That will be exciting. And exciting new classes. That's cool too.
Ok... well, I guess I will hop off of here. I should really be doing some studying. Gonna go eat some lunch first... then studying.
Love to all!
Well... it's nearing the end of my first semester as a freshman in college! While I am really looking forward to being home for the Christmas Holiday, the one thing keeping me grounded is a little 5 letter word... it stings... it hurts... it may even scare some... yes... the word I am talking about is... EXAMS! Exams are next week, and that means... yes, all week this week I am studying my behind off in order to secure good grades on these exams. [ouch... that word hurts every time... no matter how much I say it. It just doesn't get any easier.]
On the other hand... one thing that is keeping my sanity is the fact that I can FINALLY, after almost a year of anticipation, LISTEN TO CHRISTMAS MUSIC! I find myself listening to it just about every waking moment that I am not in class! It's great! Christmas music just soothes my soul! And during this time... I need the soothing!
Christmas... yes, Christmas... only 24 days away. Wait! What? Only 24 days! Wow... I gotta get busy!!! PSYCH! I already have everyone's Christmas presents! Whew... boy am I lucky! I got the last of them on black Friday- yes. I was one of the stupid people who went out early Friday morning after Thanksgiving in order to get just a few dollars off of that one present. But hey, It was worth every second of it. Fun experience. And... I only had to knock out one little kid. JUST KIDDING JUST KIDDING!
Anyhow... what am I most excited about concerning Christmas? Welll, obviously that would be my Aunt Cindi coming home. Now that she's off in Seatle it's sad. I never get to see her anymore. I do miss her A LOT! She's going to be home for quite a while actually! And other than that wonderful fact, I am also excited about all of the lights, the Christmas Eve service, and just the simple fact of all of our loved ones gathered together celebrating the true meaning of Christmas! Because... as said by the famous Steven Curtis Chapman.. "Christmas is all in the heart!"
Now... what do I miss most around Christmas time not being at home? Well, I definitely miss the fact that I didn't really get to help finish decorating. I did get to decorate a bit, but it's just not the same. I guess I took that for granted when I lived at home. Sadness. But, I am super glad that I am almost done here so I can get home!
What Christmas memory do I miss most? Definitely Christmastime with Uncle David. There was never a dull moment when he was around. He was hilarious! And I guess I can lump it all together and say Christmas as a child. However, I really enjoy Christmas now, because I can see the reaction from people when I give them a gift. And that is WAY better than recieving gifts... at least in my opinon. So, I take back that I miss Christmas as a child. Yes, it was fun, but I really enjoy being an adult.
What Christmas memory am I looking most forward to this year? Well, this year I have this amazing boyfriend. I am really excited to start a tradition with him. I can't wait for this to be the beginning of our MANY Christmas together to come. Not only that, but it's the first Christmas with the Sikes family. It's going to be really exciting to see how the kids act around Christmas time!
What do I want most for Christmas this year? Fellowship! I want to see everyone from church, out of town, family, friends... everyone. I miss seeing everyone now that I'm off at college. It's going to be so great to see everyone and catch up. Just fellowshipping, loving, and talking. Also singing Christmas carols. They always make me feel all warm and fuzzy! Ooo... and SNOW!!!!! I want a white Christmas so badly. Well, a white Christmas Eve preferably!
What am I looking most forward to after Christmas break is over? Nothing. Just kidding. I guess I am kind of looking forward to coming back to school. I mean, I will have a new roommate. And she is like my best friend! So that's cool. Not to mention it will be the last semester of my freshman year. That will be exciting. And exciting new classes. That's cool too.
Ok... well, I guess I will hop off of here. I should really be doing some studying. Gonna go eat some lunch first... then studying.
Love to all!
Monday, November 10, 2008
Well, hey everyone! I hope your week or so has been good!
Not too much has been going on. That is, other than the whole... classes and papers, and tests, and lots of stuff like that.
I went to Pinehurst this last weekend. It was great. Just like I was back at "home". I got to hang out with one of my BEST FRIENDS [duh... Abiyoyo] and got to see my little kiddies! They are growing up SO fast!
Not only that, but I got to see my boyfriend as well, which was good. I always love going to 7 lakes as well. Everyone at that church is AMAZING!
So, not too much to update on. This week shouldn't be too bad. I'm chilling right now, working on my English assignment, and waiting on Cassandra so we can go to town for a few things. TeHe! Yay!
I'll update more as the week progresses hopefully. We'll see.
Love to all!
Not too much has been going on. That is, other than the whole... classes and papers, and tests, and lots of stuff like that.
I went to Pinehurst this last weekend. It was great. Just like I was back at "home". I got to hang out with one of my BEST FRIENDS [duh... Abiyoyo] and got to see my little kiddies! They are growing up SO fast!
Not only that, but I got to see my boyfriend as well, which was good. I always love going to 7 lakes as well. Everyone at that church is AMAZING!
So, not too much to update on. This week shouldn't be too bad. I'm chilling right now, working on my English assignment, and waiting on Cassandra so we can go to town for a few things. TeHe! Yay!
I'll update more as the week progresses hopefully. We'll see.
Love to all!
Tuesday, November 4, 2008
Crazy day!
So- today has been kind of crazy. I'm not really sure why, but I've been in this weird mood. It's really kind of intense. It's like, I'm sad, but happy, and tired, but wide awake. Ya know?
Anyhow... I'm pretty excited that I don't have English or University tomorrow. That means all I have to do tomorrow is Old Testament at 9 in the morning. I'm pretty much happy about that. Actually, I'm very happy about that!
I'm currently sitting here, waiting on my friend Cassandra to get out of the library so we can go eat dinner. I'm kinda starving. BUT... we have planned a girls' evening, since neither of us have a lot to do tomorrow. We are going to watch "Waitress" and eat dinner in my room. Hopefully that will make my weird mood go away. We also plan on waiting to see the election results. I think that's super exciting! I guess it's more fun for me since I actually voted this year! I guess it means more to me now! Yay!
So, about 45 minutes ago, I was sitting in here, on my bed, watching election stuff, and the fire alarm went off. And oh boy... it was LOUD! I was in my shorts and t-shirt... b/c it's hot in my room. I had to hurridly put on jeans and a jacket. I was almost the last person out! AHHH! Well, of course the girls on the upper floors followed me, but that's ok. You get what I'm saying!
So, I'm super ready for this weekend. I'm going to Pinehurst to see my second family! I get to babysit the kids this Saturday night, and I get to hang with Karen! A.K.A- Abiyoyo. Hehe. [inside joke] And I will hopefully get to spend some time with my boyfriend as well. <3 it's our 3 month monthaversary! Yay us!
Speaking of my boyfriend... he's pretty much amazing. I love him to death. I think we are the perfect couple... at least in my mind we are. :) He makes me smile!
Well, I think I'm gonna hop off here now, and try to do some stuff around the room before Cassandra gets back from the Library. I'm super ready for dinner. Hopefully all of this "fun" planned for tonight will make my weird mood go away.
Love to all.
Anyhow... I'm pretty excited that I don't have English or University tomorrow. That means all I have to do tomorrow is Old Testament at 9 in the morning. I'm pretty much happy about that. Actually, I'm very happy about that!
I'm currently sitting here, waiting on my friend Cassandra to get out of the library so we can go eat dinner. I'm kinda starving. BUT... we have planned a girls' evening, since neither of us have a lot to do tomorrow. We are going to watch "Waitress" and eat dinner in my room. Hopefully that will make my weird mood go away. We also plan on waiting to see the election results. I think that's super exciting! I guess it's more fun for me since I actually voted this year! I guess it means more to me now! Yay!
So, about 45 minutes ago, I was sitting in here, on my bed, watching election stuff, and the fire alarm went off. And oh boy... it was LOUD! I was in my shorts and t-shirt... b/c it's hot in my room. I had to hurridly put on jeans and a jacket. I was almost the last person out! AHHH! Well, of course the girls on the upper floors followed me, but that's ok. You get what I'm saying!
So, I'm super ready for this weekend. I'm going to Pinehurst to see my second family! I get to babysit the kids this Saturday night, and I get to hang with Karen! A.K.A- Abiyoyo. Hehe. [inside joke] And I will hopefully get to spend some time with my boyfriend as well. <3 it's our 3 month monthaversary! Yay us!
Speaking of my boyfriend... he's pretty much amazing. I love him to death. I think we are the perfect couple... at least in my mind we are. :) He makes me smile!
Well, I think I'm gonna hop off here now, and try to do some stuff around the room before Cassandra gets back from the Library. I'm super ready for dinner. Hopefully all of this "fun" planned for tonight will make my weird mood go away.
Love to all.
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